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Photographs and memories

July 17th, 2010

There is something about photographs. Since I returned, I have thought very little about the experiences in Korea. As in any journey from one culture to another, there has been a sweet honeymoon period and I have given myself over to that heightened appreciation for the beauty and amazingness of the Eastern Cape. Today I plugged in my camera for the first time and discovered I hadn’t even downloaded my pictures from Hongdae and the DMZ.

I duly downloaded them. Looking through the pictures was the strangest (strongest?) experience. I had downloaded a picture in the wrong place. I’d put it in the Hongdae folder but it wasn’t – it was a picture taken in Itaewon. I took it from the window of the restaurant where I had lunch after I went to the DMZ. The window was open and the flags strung across the street were flapping in the breeze. It was a quiet afternoon. It was a Tuesday and not many people were wandering around this tourist/shopping/restaurant area. I suppose it would still be busy by many people’s standards, but it was quiet for Seoul. I find myself, in my mind, pronouncing Seoul in the Korean manner. The photo takes me back. I can taste the Korean beer – not very good, especially after the North Korean beer we’d tried earlier in the day. I had fish and chips. It was the first Western-style fish-and-chips meal I’d had in Korea. The restaurant was called Little Guinness, I remember now. I can feel the breeze through the window and hear the sounds. I sat on the side with the hatch from the kitchen. In the background, beneath the music, I can hear people speaking Korean as they prepare the food. It took a while to arrive – I was hungry – but the day was beautifully hot and clear and it was peaceful there.

There are other pictures, later. I went to a park by a river. By THE river, the Han River (Hangang). There was a man by a tree, in a field of flowers, practicing the saxophone. I’d forgotten about it. I watched him for a while. It was so unusual.

And the craziness of cosmopolitan Hongdae. The Self-Esteem boutique. SPAM restaurant. B-hind coffee shop. The crisp taste of the white wine at the bar where I sat on that last night. A beautiful Italian place. There were dogs in the courtyard outside the window next to my table. Children came and talked to them and fed them. Groups settled down to eat pizza and drink wine. Families sat on the balcony across the courtyard (all the same restaurant) and ate fancy dinners. I can taste the wine as the last sunlight fades and the night settles softly on the city.

I am struck by the tangible sensations evoked by the photographs – the smells, the tastes, the feeling of the wind. I go further back, to the pictures from the Mozambique trip, a good year and a half ago now. They’re just as vivid. The rain on the first morning in Maputo and later, when we stopped and ordered Sangria, and in the wild gardens. How soaked we were when we finally got back and my hat that would never be the same. And Rich and Jonathan going off to find prawns for dinner. Breakfast at that surf-themed place with the bookshop in Tofo after waking up because it was no longer possible to sleep in the heat of the yellow tent. Looking the pictures, I feel the heat, even on this cold winter morning. I had fish and chips in Tofo. The others had gone off exploring but I stayed behind. It was the best fish and chips I’ve ever eaten. I don’t have a picture of that. I wonder why.

There is a picture of Inhambane that New Years Day. The sun is just going down and people are starting to gather on the wall by the water, across the road from where we were staying. My picture is blurred and not very good but still I can hear the music starting and taste the cold Mozambiquan beer as we sat down to watch the people and soak up the atmosphere. It was such a perfect evening.

Days later, in the lush green of Vilankulos, the squid pasta evening. We drank Savannahs there. I’d forgotten that. And that amazing sunset. And the dog. And the rolls. Suddenly I remember those tiny, sweet rolls we bought that morning in Inhambane and ate with those Senor something-or-other chips. That was the day we took the ferry and found that bakery/ice-cream shop. The memories tumble over each other like a dam bursting. The tastes and sounds, the heat and the rain. Being soaking wet on the ferry. Everything comes back in a rush. I feel the need to go even further back, to a long-ago cruise in the Caribbean. The pictures are almost like travelling – they allow you to go back, in your mind, to revisit and experience again. I am primed for travel.

Next to my computer sits a bus ticket. It’s not a long trip, just an overnighter, in fact, but it a little taste, a little glimpse of travel. A little picture, even. I pack my camera back in its little bag, check that I have extra batteries and put it in my daypack. I have a longer journey planned for next week, to one of my favourite cities in the world, but for now this will do nicely – a little journey to a little place that more than any other makes me feel home.

K-pop for democracy

May 28th, 2010

After a hair-raising culinary adventure in Mokpo, we high-tailed it onto a bus (sadly there was no ferry) and spent Friday night in Jindo. And on Jindo. Jindo-eup (town) is the main town on Korea’s third largest Island (also Jindo) and the largest city in Jindo-gun (county). It gets confusing.

Friday night, after a safely reassuring dinner of galbi, we found a lovely little jazz bar, complete with appropriate décor, jazz music and good cocktails. In Jindo. Jindo is tiny. Ok, it has a few apartment blocks and a large school or two but by Korean standards it’s a small town. Sometimes it’s amazing the hidden gems you find tucked away in the most unexpected places. Finds like these make me feel sorry for travellers who won’t ever venture off the beaten track, beyond their 5-star resorts and guided tours, for fear that they might be bored/in danger/unable to find somewhere appropriately trendy where they can ‘be seen’. If you ever make it to Jindo, try and find All That Jazz. The proprietor, who is friendly and professional, spend some time in Paris and has put together a delightful little spot to stop for a cocktail or two in a sophisticated yet comfortable bar.

The following morning, I was up early and off to explore, leaving my travel-mate to sleep in. Our plan was to move on fairly soon, so I wanted to get a look at the town before we left. I headed vaguely in the direction of the PB to get something for breakfast, but soon got distracted. By politics. A quick point here: I like politics. I find it fascinating and scintillating and other words a large portion of the population would never in a million years apply to the democratic process (or, most of them, be able to spell). I am most interested in South African politics, but also follow elections and other major political events in other countries, too. This is the first time I’ve been exposed to politics in Korea. It seems there is an election – local government, I think – coming up. Jindo was a great opportunity to watch, as a completely disconnected foreigner, democracy happen.

We had seen the previous day a few vehicles driving around playing bad K-pop-style music at high volume. It took some time and rather a lot of figuring out to realise these were part of the politics. Towards the evening, one of these covered trucks drove past with a man plonked on a stool on the back wearing a smart shirt with a yellow sash. The man waved enthusiastically as the noise assaulted our senses. The truck was yellow with some hangeul writing and a large number. It appears each candidate gets a number, I assume to make the process easier. Each also seems to pick a colour. In Jindo, the highest number I saw was 12. 12 candidates. That’s a lot in what is really a small place. I love that. I love that there are 12 candidates standing in a local election in a small place. And I love how enthusiastically they campaigned.

My travel companion coined the apt term: cute politics. Korea has cute politics. Everything seems to happen on a diminutive scale. Back home, political rallies involve the candidate standing on a big-rig talking and singing and dancing with a crowd of thousands. In Jindo, I found myself at what seemed to be the main intersection of the town’s two major roads (which wasn’t very big at all). Four corners to a busy intersection. On each corner stood one of the noisy little campaign trucks, each barring it’s own pop-ey exhortations for a particular candidate. In front of each truck was a row of women (ranging in age from early 20s to middle-aged), all in the identical, colour-appropriate outfits (with sashes), dancing to the music. When I say dancing here, you should be picturing a row of small Asian women all doing coordinated, very simple, pop-dancing moves. In fact, the dancing consisted mostly of coordinated hand-gestures. But they were determinedly enthusiastic about it and they were all in time. Duelling political campaigns, except that there were four of them. All out in full force, not only at that section but all along the main street where a Saturday-morning street market was taking place, in between the foot-traffic and car-traffic and the political vans and the dancing women. And all of this in the pouring rain.

I was fascinated, I just kept walking along the road and finding more and more of them. It was amazing. I was simultaneously amused (okay, very amused) and elated. There is a moment in the West Wing when CJ says that the small town that votes before everyone else is important because it teaches us about democracy. I felt a little like that, that Saturday morning in Jindo. Here we were, in the rain, in a small town, on an island, in the forgotten south-western corner of Korea but these people believed; they believed so strongly that there are 12 different candidates standing and each and every one has a little van of pop-music-noise and at least one row of well-rehearsed dancing followers. These people believed in democracy. And they were celebrating that belief. They were celebrating their right to vote and to dance for their candidates and to choose their leadership.

The south west (Jeollanam-do) was the birthplace of Korean democracy and the area that bore the brunt of the painful transition from dictatorial rule. Just days before, the country had commemorated the hundreds who fell during the Gwangju massacre on May 18th, 1980. And here, in this small town, were people standing up and honouring them in the truest way possible: by engaging fully in the democratic process. It was a little awe-inspiring, in a K-pop-ey, dancing-women kind of way.

(PS Can’t add photos to this post but this is hands down my favourite pic of the day)

In other words

April 29th, 2009

The previous post got me thinking about this:

THOUGHTHAWK

she’s learned the winds in order to betray
the winds. today she drifts less frugally,
this unknoxed, disencalvined, no-god’s-prey
whose spirals widen centrifugally…

Which far more effectively expresses what I was trying to say.

Being South African

April 7th, 2009

Dis ‘n bitterbessie dagbreek, dis ‘n uitroep komma-punt
Mabalel is huistoe, want sy mis haar eie kind
Ek wens ek kon jou teken met ‘n koukie of ‘n kwas
Ek wens ek kon onthou hoekom ek so bewerig was
Ek wens ek kon jou oopskryf, met my balpunt pen behaag
Ek wens ons kon saam wakker word in ‘n youth hostel in Praag

Liefde uit die Oudedoos, Koos Kombuis

Ek lewe
Gemaak om na liefde te strewe
Op vlerke van vriendskap to swewe
Sonder vra, sonder sorge
Dag vir dag dreun ritme om my heen
Voel die ure vol, en tog alleen
Maar jou blik verslaan my vrese
Son, saffier, lag in jou wese
Bring geluk wat lank verlore was

Ek lewe, Karen Zoid

South Africa is a beautiful country. A kaleidescope of different beauties.

Like frost on the veld on a winter morning, icy-white on the dry, pale grass, in a valley surrounded by sweeping mountains dotted with trees and blood-red aloes.

In Autumn, the winelands of the Western Cape are spashed with colour: the yellow and orange and brown of the Autumn vines, darker evergreens on the slopes, the blues and browns of dams thirsting for the rainy season, empty blue skies and changing-colour oaks.

The moon rising over the Cape Town city bowl, the mountain rising from a haze of pinks and purples and blues, from where we sit on a gently swaying boat in the bay, the chilly breeze off the atlantic, the spray salty, the bubbly sweet

So many beauties. Grahamstown sunsets and cold beer. Highveld storms. The empty freedom of the Karoo. Evenings in De Akker and Springbok. The soaring Drakensberg. Mangroves in KZN. Long stretches of untouched Wild Coast beach.

Last week, the ANC presidential candidate said that Afrikaaners are the only whites who are truly South African. At the time, I didn’t pay too much attention; just another outlandish comment from someone who will say anything to please the audience to whom he is speaking. Today, reflecting on the NPA decision, I found myself retreating into music that I realised how angry his comment made me.

My comfort-music, the music that makes me feel whole again, is Koos Kombuis (with the fading echoes of ‘n SoutPaddy), Chris Chameleon, Klopjag, Karen Zoid, etc., etc. It’s ironic: the only subject I have ever failed was Afrikaans (in Std 2). My soul is Afrikaans. Die ‘taal van my hart’ is Afrikaans. But I’m not Afrikaans. I’m an English-speaking white South African.

I am angry, offended, impotently raging at the idea that anyone, anyone, questions my identity as a South African. When white South Africans go overseas they are often asked how they can be white and still come from Africa. We put up with it and laugh it off because they’re foreigners. It stops being funny when it happens at home. People joke and laugh about it but so many of us who were born here and who lived through the the transition and were part of the emergence of this new democracy remain fiercely attached to this country. No matter where we go, and many of my generation, many of my friends, are scattered across the globe, we remain fiercely, devotedly South African. And none of us is comfortably with anyone questioning that identity. I suppose heightened by the recent happenings just across the border in Zim with the strong suggestion that white Zimbabweans are not welcome.

It is not okay to me – and to many others I know – for anyone to question or throw doubt on my identity as a South African. I don’t care whose parents’ parents’ parents’ came from somewhere else (and everyone’s did), this is home -

There is a saying in Zulu: ‘If you were in my flesh, I could tear you out, But you are in my blood, which cannot be divided.’ Recessional for Grace, Margeurite Poland

I am an African. I am a South African. Wherever I happen to wander, on the earth and intellectually, I carry with me the red soil of the karoo, the soaring Drakensberg, the snow on the mountains around Worcester, the winelands in Autumn, Table Mountain from the bay at sunset, bright red aloes in winter-white grass and a million other moments that are my anchor. My identity is complex and multiple and complicated and no-one, particularly not someone who purports to be a leader of all South Africans, has a right to question the South African-ness of it. I’m not much of a fan of fighting but I would fight for this.

Moments of wonder

February 13th, 2009

het satteliet tv jou bron van avontuur geword?
en is jou playstation nou die somtotaal van jou genot?

het jy gehoor wat het geword van jan tuisbly?
hy het geglo dat hy alles tuis kon kry
en onbewus van wat daar is
wat buite sy voordeur skuil het hy
uitgemis op

acapulco, amsterdam, londen en berlyn
phoenix arizona waar die son ook lekker skyn
brussels, delhi, moskou, machu picchu in peru
san francisco, shangai en ja, selfs ook timbuktu.

Chris Chameleon, Reis

I love this song. The sentiment is something that makes complete sense to me and I know lots of the people feel the same. Travel is a crucial part of being. Not just travel. It’s about having experiences. It struck me last night (which watching a fantastic Chris Chameleon show) that the feeling of wonder that accompanies being in far off places and doing things I wouldn’t normally do (like spending 5 hours travelling in a dodgy taxi that leaked all the way), is the same sense of wonder that accompanies the experience of good live theatre. One of the reasons that Grahamstown festival is such a joy is that it is an increadibly intensive period of wonder. A week filled with hours of suspention of disbelief and believing in magic.

Some people think I am odd because I get so excited about things which seem ordinary to others. I experience such an increadible sense of wonder at some things that others find simple. Sometimes they are as basic as a perfect day or the increadible beauty of a karoo landscape stretching to forever. Other times they are things like shows or art exhibitions or books or lectures that stretch me and make me more than I was before. I recently read (for the first time) On Liberty. The feeling of wonder was the same.

I suppose the realisation is that I want all of my life to be filled with those moments. I may never have stability and the stable satisfaction of the blossoming of relationships and months and years of hard work into something gently beautiful. Perhaps it is sufficient compensation that my years will be filled with moments of extreme, of increadible wonder and joy. Joy will, of course, not fill every moment and my life will continue to have many lows, and lows as hard and deep as the moments of wonder are high. But they are infinitely bearable in exchange for the joy.

When I am old, I shall sit and write and think and remember these moments. Many will have tangible records – photographs, scrapbooks, writing, old newspapers and stories I have kept and the music and writing and pictures of those with whom I have shared those moments. Perhaps it is melancholy and defeatist to think of growing old alone but I like to be realistic. If that is what awaits me, I am so glad I will have these memories to hold on to, these journeys, mental and physical. And I’m so glad that I have learnt to hold on – in the face of all entreaties to be a grown up and not be so excitable -  to this precious capacity to expereince moments of increadible wonder.