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Wandering (and wondering) development professional and aspiring aid worker. Contact me on anticipationofwonder[at]gmail[dot]com

Moments of wonder

het satteliet tv jou bron van avontuur geword?
en is jou playstation nou die somtotaal van jou genot?

het jy gehoor wat het geword van jan tuisbly?
hy het geglo dat hy alles tuis kon kry
en onbewus van wat daar is
wat buite sy voordeur skuil het hy
uitgemis op

acapulco, amsterdam, londen en berlyn
phoenix arizona waar die son ook lekker skyn
brussels, delhi, moskou, machu picchu in peru
san francisco, shangai en ja, selfs ook timbuktu.

Chris Chameleon, Reis

I love this song. The sentiment is something that makes complete sense to me and I know lots of the people feel the same. Travel is a crucial part of being. Not just travel. It’s about having experiences. It struck me last night (which watching a fantastic Chris Chameleon show) that the feeling of wonder that accompanies being in far off places and doing things I wouldn’t normally do (like spending 5 hours travelling in a dodgy taxi that leaked all the way), is the same sense of wonder that accompanies the experience of good live theatre. One of the reasons that Grahamstown festival is such a joy is that it is an increadibly intensive period of wonder. A week filled with hours of suspention of disbelief and believing in magic.

Some people think I am odd because I get so excited about things which seem ordinary to others. I experience such an increadible sense of wonder at some things that others find simple. Sometimes they are as basic as a perfect day or the increadible beauty of a karoo landscape stretching to forever. Other times they are things like shows or art exhibitions or books or lectures that stretch me and make me more than I was before. I recently read (for the first time) On Liberty. The feeling of wonder was the same.

I suppose the realisation is that I want all of my life to be filled with those moments. I may never have stability and the stable satisfaction of the blossoming of relationships and months and years of hard work into something gently beautiful. Perhaps it is sufficient compensation that my years will be filled with moments of extreme, of increadible wonder and joy. Joy will, of course, not fill every moment and my life will continue to have many lows, and lows as hard and deep as the moments of wonder are high. But they are infinitely bearable in exchange for the joy.

When I am old, I shall sit and write and think and remember these moments. Many will have tangible records – photographs, scrapbooks, writing, old newspapers and stories I have kept and the music and writing and pictures of those with whom I have shared those moments. Perhaps it is melancholy and defeatist to think of growing old alone but I like to be realistic. If that is what awaits me, I am so glad I will have these memories to hold on to, these journeys, mental and physical. And I’m so glad that I have learnt to hold on – in the face of all entreaties to be a grown up and not be so excitable –  to this precious capacity to expereince moments of increadible wonder.

Arrival, 27 December 2008

The trip to Mozambique began in rather a hurried fashion. We were running late leaving for Park Station. We made it by the skin of our teeth and collapsed into our seats at the back of the bus. We slept a little and chatted a little and read. Jonathan watched the terrible movies, the highlight (lowlight?) of which had to be ‘Why did I get married?”. We stopped in Nelspruit for lunch, but instead of stopping at a one-stop, we stopped at a garage with a random little cafe with very little stock. Rather annoying given that we hadn’t had time for breakfast but you make do, I suppose.

Eventually, in the rain, we reached the border-post. I haven’t travelled very much so I’m not good at borders. In fact, this is the first land border (as opposed to airport or seaport) that I can remember crossing. There must have been SA-Ciskei and -Transkei crossings once upon a time but I was too young to remember. Plus homelands don’t really count.

The bus stopped on the SA side and everyone climbed off. It being the 27th of December it isn’t too surprising that the place was a madhouse. We followed the crowds around until we eventually got through the process of our passports being checked on the SA side. At that point someone pointed us in the direction of Mozambique.

Off we went, striding out along the stretch of road that makes up no-man’s land. The border between South Africa and Mozambique is not particularly secure. We walked across, stopping only to flash our passports to a couple of disinterested guards. On the Mozambique side things were more chaotic and less organised than in SA. We found the correct queue, after a bit of looking lost, and waited. As we inched to the front we were lucky enough to be discovered by our benevolant bus stewardess who rushed us through.

Finally, armed with the R20-visas and passport stamps, we wandered out and went to find our bus. Crowds meandered backwards and forwards going, really, where they liked. Have I mentioned that our border with Mozambique is remarkably pourous? After waiting for what seemed like forever for the rest still in the queue to join us, we climbed back on the bus and began the last part of the busride to Maputo.

The vegetation had been changing for a while before the border. On the other side it continued to change from bushveld to jungle. But jungle not in the sense of the rain-forests of hollywood movies but like those ‘jungles’ through which we walked on Cozumel in Mexico – thin, tall trees, without the thick foliage that typifies our forests, not much groundcover and very few bushes and small trees.

As we traveled through the rural areas, there were ‘homesteads’ alongside the road. Something that would continue to fascinate me throughout the trip. The homesteads there are so different to what I am used to. All my life, I have taken for granted the idea of a homestead as a collection of round, thatched, wattle-and-daub huts, with at least a small patch of cultivated land where squashes and meilies are grown and the kraal – so typical, so central to the spiritual beliefs, culture and lives of the Xhosa people – surrounded by rich grassland and bushveld stretching to the horizon in all directions.

The homesteads we were passing in Mozambique were small rectangular plots. Very small. In the corner of each was a very small, rectangular hut. Sometimes even two little huts. Next to these was generally a palm tree. Banana plants or sometimes meilies filled the rest of the plot. Outside the hut were sometimes cleared areas with a fire-pit. Sometimes washed clothes or packets of what I assume was food were hung on the trunks of the palm trees. They looked desolate. So much more poor than at home. Tiny little squares carved out of the jungle, all scattered far apart, where poor people were eeking out a living. There are many discussions which we started to have on the trip which raised questions of urban versus rural poverty but I am still struck by the contrasting rural poverty; the far greater poverty that I perceived on those little squares of land, carved out of the jungle, than on the rich, grassland, hillside homesteads I have walked among at home.

The bus stopped once before reaching Maputo. We had entered an urban area. The little brick houses, set in dusty yards with only a few plants – sometimes a banana tree, sometimes a palm, sometimes some other sub-tropical flowering plant. It reminded me so much of Mawhelereng. I suppose these were the suburbs of Maputo. Growing up in South Africa has scewed my perceptions of urban development. The first thought was that this was the township area, a township like those found outside every South African city. The bus stopped outside a large shopping centre (of the type you see in places like Empangeni and Umtate). This was one of the only large shopping centres we saw in the whole country. The large anchor shop was a Shoprite. I suppose this is the beginning of the South African retail colonization of the country. So far it has not spread and most people in most places still shop at local markets and bakeries. But increasing urbanisation makes this untenable in the long run. For now, this is the only place we saw where the South African shopping centre has taken hold.

Eventually the bus reached Mozambique’s capital city. We stopped outside a travel agency in Karl Marx Avenue. Climbing off the bus into the heat, we reclaimed our bags (in between the chaos of the Cape Town surfer-types who were determined to be first). The taxi drivers were determinedly trying to pick us up but we resisted. Jonathan went off to try and draw some money at the Standard Bank across the road (welcome to the SA colonisation of Mozambique’s banking sector). We were in the process of trying to decide on a plan of action when someone from the backpacker’s found us. It turned out that the other bus (one of our number was on a different bus) stopped somewhere else, so we hopped in the car and headed off to Fatima’s.

About half way there, the driver hurridly pulled off the road and told one of us to get out. The look of horror on Jonathan’s face was quite impressive. It turned out that what had happened was that the driver had spotted a police-man and, given that we were overloaded, pulled off and momentarily chucked one of us out until the cops had passed by in order to avoid trouble. The cops safely passed, we squashed back in and eventually reached our destination.

Fatima’s was fine. A little manky but we were happy not to be on a bus. We checked in and put our stuff in the dorms and considered our next move. At this stage we were still missing two Stuparts. We were also quite hungry. Rather than run off and lose them more, we sat down and had some beer while we waited.

Rich and John soon arrived. That evening we headed off to find food. We headed for the restaurant quarter of Maputo. That concept is a bit odd but there are a few nice enough restaurants in one area so it was fine. Richard, thankfully, knew the way. By this stage the rest of us were pretty exhausted. The walk was an opportunity to see just how run-down Maputo is. It’s quite pretty but the streets are slowly going to pot-holes, the buildings are gently decaying and there is not much sense of civilization and buzz for a city Saturday night street. We walked past various interesting things like little supermarket-lets and loads of ice-cream parlours. We also walked past exactly the kind of stall you see on the side of the road selling cigarettes in Obs, Cape Town or in Braamfontein in Joburg, except that they were, on the side of the road, at 7 o’clock at night, selling a variety of local and imported liquour. Road-side bottle-stores would turn out to be quite common in Moz but I was intrigued the first time I saw this one. Such a different world.

After walking for what seemed like forever on that first day (and what would seem like a gentle stroll by the end of the holiday) we found the road we were looking for. We found a place called something about Dolce Vita and took a table on the veranda. Ah, civilization! The place could have been transplanted from Sandton square. It may sound odd to go off to another country and immediately seek out something so like home but after a long bus-trip and much exhaustion, that touch of civilization – and their yummy G&Ts – was necessary. The food was really great, too. I was happy.

We also decided that we now understood the colonial propensity for gin and tonics. In that heat, after a long day, in that chaos, there is little quite as refreshing and lovely as a large G&T.

Back at the backpackers, we annexed a group of comfy(-ish) chairs, settled down with our beers and chatted for hours. It was one of those meandering conversations typical of educated, idealistic young people sitting around over beer. The central theme to which we returned and to which we would return again and again during this trip, was happiness – the relative importance of happiness, the value and idea of seeking happiness and the relationship between happiness, ethics, altruism and duty.

Much later, the last two of us fell into hot, sticky dorm-room beds and drifted off to our first night’s sleep in Maputo. We had arrived and the holiday had begun.

Palau

One trip across the border and the travel-bug has bitten! I suppose the desire to know different people and different places has always been there – a desire I’ve explored through books and stories – and finally taking this Mozambique trip has made acting on that desire and travelling to far-off places seem more of an option.

It occurs to me that this epiphany probably shouldn’t coincide with getting National Geographic. There was a show this evening about the fossilised remains of small people found in two caves on opposite sides of the main island of the micronesian nation of Palau. It’s fascinating. I am intrigued. A national of little people who lived between 3000 and 1500 BP and then vanished from the earth. People who came from across the seas to these coral islands. People who are smaller than other humans of the time but who seem to be human. The researchers think they may have been ordinary-sized humans who rapidly evolved to be smaller (except for their teeth, which apparently take longer) and then were wiped out by something… no-one is quite sure what.

I suppose the academic reaction is that I want to study the situation. And possibly find some way to study some of the disciplines that would let me study the situation. Even without the formal access to the information, I’m sure I’ll read up on it and keep my eye out for papers like this one. I’m particularly interested in the idea of elastic and/or multi-directional human evolution. I’m fairly sure, in general, that the idea of evolution, when taken as the idea of movement along a fixed line in a fixed, particular direction, has been over-generously applied, particularly in it’s application to social or societal development. This is my big objection to stage theories of human social development. It’s fascinating to think that there might be physical evolutionary evidence of a group of people who evolved in the opposite direction (in this case smaller instead of larger) to other human groups.

Whether or not it’s true, whatever else I find out about these ‘little people’ of Palau, I now have at least one place on my list of ‘places to visit before I die’. I guess once the travel bug bites there really is no turning back.

See you in the Republic of Palau